May 2019

your eyes look like coming homei just wanna know you better

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basically this loli genuinely dk what to do with my life. i mean, yes, i technically have my career sorta planned out but that’s about it. what do i actually /do/ with my life though? what do i live for? do i find a purpose? why do i have to stay alive?

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the days are still really hard and the nights are toughest but i guess i’m still trying. my brain has gone into isolation, i am numbed right now but i know it is not for long. being alive is really taking a toll on my energy. i hope i’ll be able to express myself during therapy next tuesday. i wanna bawl my eyes out but i also wanna hold it all in and numb the pain bc i gotta deal with life/school/etc.

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tbh i wanted to relapse fucking badly and get into trouble so i could get sent to the A&E or smth…but i didn’t.i let myself cry. i cried on the way to a meeting and then cried on the way back till i ran out of breath and tears when i got back. i sat on the floor by my bed, bouncing between thoughts and rationalising — idolising suicidal ideations. i let myself feel even though it physically hurt everywhere. i barely breathed but i tried. i really wanted to give up but i gave myself a chance.

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ouch. idk why we do this when we know it’s only making things worse. isn’t that the fucking worst — when you really wanna be in each others’ lives but you can’t?i really fucking miss you. there’s no one like you and it’s tearing me apart because no one knows me the way you do.

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got submission still can go out eat banmian sia. HAHA dk what kinda power flex im tryna do LOL.

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